Rollercoaster Ride

I was at the lab (again) having yet more blood drawn and the view out the waiting room window was of a couple of rollercoasters. It felt as if the image was put there just for me; the loops, the giant pause before rushing downhill headfirst, the sensation of loosing your stomach and the loss of control. It fits my life quite well right now. There is also the recurring symbol of the mirror that has been following me recently. I think I am ready to pay heed to these. I think this time, I get it.